we always laughed so much about life and people...I miss those laughs..I loved your sense of humor..always dark and smart... I can't believe it was a year ago when we were going to see Billy Joel at Jazz fest..if was a shame we ended up not going...
I talked to your mom the other day..it was heartbreaking..if you only knew how much she misses you..
I met the other day a fast friend you made on a ride in the street car, we are now friends too; just wanted to tell you because I know you will be happy in knowing so.
There hasn't been a day I don't think about you, what you would say, what would we be doing...
Friday, April 17, 2009
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
here with us
These are pictures from yesterday, Kelly, Lee and I remembered many of our favorites moments with Jessica. I hope she could felt our love and respect for her, wherever she is now.
I have so many vivid images of you today....of your hands specially..they were so tough for such a sweet and soft person like you...I also remember the way you used to put your hands on your jaw ....and the other day, I remembered that day we played tennis..you had such a great service..
We are gonna light some candles for you today, we will have lemons and drift wood...
As Michael said, we all hope you are having a blast with Ernie and Antoinette K-doe over there. We love you babe..and will not forget about you..you blessed us all with your life, your love and sweetness made us better persons..muah!
Thursday, March 5, 2009
...
I can't believe how time flies. Mardi Gras was fantastic...the parades were Ok..I am not crazy about them anyway..the march bands on the opposite, were amazing..they are my reason to go.
We missed you so badly.....but we also talked about you all the time. Kelly and I managed to put our costumes together almost in the last minute...plus a couple of slepless nights. I met someone you met during your last Mardi Gras too. It was a nice coincidence, he found my cell phone on the ground..I was apperantly close to him and he asked me, I had not even noticed I had lost my cell phone. My friend Micheal told me, who he was and I showed him your picture in my cell phone..that one that I took at city park...I treasure that picture.
I will have that day in mind forever, like if it was yesterday when we sat in that bench..and you took a bottle of wine out of your purse!!..surprise, surprise..we drunk wine with cookies that day..the wine was sweet..very sweet..ha!..something special for sure. I catched some cool beetles and you said a had a good eye to find them, we exchange some of them too.
I can't stop thinking in your birthday..and how close it is. This is so sad honey..you should be with us..
We missed you so badly.....but we also talked about you all the time. Kelly and I managed to put our costumes together almost in the last minute...plus a couple of slepless nights. I met someone you met during your last Mardi Gras too. It was a nice coincidence, he found my cell phone on the ground..I was apperantly close to him and he asked me, I had not even noticed I had lost my cell phone. My friend Micheal told me, who he was and I showed him your picture in my cell phone..that one that I took at city park...I treasure that picture.
I will have that day in mind forever, like if it was yesterday when we sat in that bench..and you took a bottle of wine out of your purse!!..surprise, surprise..we drunk wine with cookies that day..the wine was sweet..very sweet..ha!..something special for sure. I catched some cool beetles and you said a had a good eye to find them, we exchange some of them too.
I can't stop thinking in your birthday..and how close it is. This is so sad honey..you should be with us..
Friday, January 16, 2009
Always with us
This is a picture of Jessica that was uploaded into the Facebook group of Jessica, I decided to bring it here for those that are not in the Facebook. As I see her picture I can only think that one is not where the body is but where one is missed the most. I miss Jessica everyday that's how I know she is all the time with me.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
long nights
Honey..
Can't sleep again..after almost a whole bottle of wine...nothing...it used to work..
I have probably said this way too much...but you never asked me for anything...never...why was not I there for you?..what can I do for you now?..I know these words came too late...
Can't sleep again..after almost a whole bottle of wine...nothing...it used to work..
I have probably said this way too much...but you never asked me for anything...never...why was not I there for you?..what can I do for you now?..I know these words came too late...
Saturday, January 3, 2009
my hope under siege
Someone told me months ago, that at least, you know now what comes after all of this; the question, unanswerable for us, of what is awaiting after life, is a certainty for you now….What is it honey? Is there really a heaven?
I now see so many good reasons in being such a believer…for the time being...I want to believe that whatever it is, it could not be worse than what we see on earth..and if that is true then it is true to say we leave this world to rest…the world is a hopeless place my Jessica. The way you were taken from us is evidence of that…
I guess you would be saying Ivonne stop it!! and asking me why am I so tragic and dramatic all the time!…and that instead, I should be enjoying what life gave me. I do enjoy life and I am very conscious on how lucky I am…but that does not mean I don’t think life is painfully unfair.
I did not want to start on all the problems my country has but...I just heard the government defined that 2 million of Colombians, who represent the poorest sector, will make only $497.000 pesos monthly this year (approximately 250 dollars!!), I wonder how they make a living out of such a misery, the saddest part is that those are the lucky ones that got a job: 10% of Colombians do not receive a formal salary and have what the government calls “informal” jobs meaning…they work by themselves selling whatever they can on the streets…it is sad, very sad…and God only knows whether that figure (the unemployment percentage) is true or not….the DANE (the national statistics department) was found to be lying on this government figures not so long ago…so probably the real figure is worse than 10%.
That’s only one part..let’s don’t talk on murders, kidnapping and impunity...I don't have a reason to believe that we are the only ones with such problems...(I'm thinking of Mexico), Colombia is only the case I know the best…but people keeps killing each other every where...I can only pray that someday..hopefully soon.. Israel and the US will stop and think again what they are doing in Gaza.
I don't pretend in making your blog a political debate..I just needed to vent this..I keep losing faith..or what the non believers call hope.
Last night I wake up in the middle of night and was you the first thing that came into my mind…I could had been dreaming about you…I used to have beautiful dreams and used to remember them…for some reason I can’t do that anymore…
I now see so many good reasons in being such a believer…for the time being...I want to believe that whatever it is, it could not be worse than what we see on earth..and if that is true then it is true to say we leave this world to rest…the world is a hopeless place my Jessica. The way you were taken from us is evidence of that…
I guess you would be saying Ivonne stop it!! and asking me why am I so tragic and dramatic all the time!…and that instead, I should be enjoying what life gave me. I do enjoy life and I am very conscious on how lucky I am…but that does not mean I don’t think life is painfully unfair.
I did not want to start on all the problems my country has but...I just heard the government defined that 2 million of Colombians, who represent the poorest sector, will make only $497.000 pesos monthly this year (approximately 250 dollars!!), I wonder how they make a living out of such a misery, the saddest part is that those are the lucky ones that got a job: 10% of Colombians do not receive a formal salary and have what the government calls “informal” jobs meaning…they work by themselves selling whatever they can on the streets…it is sad, very sad…and God only knows whether that figure (the unemployment percentage) is true or not….the DANE (the national statistics department) was found to be lying on this government figures not so long ago…so probably the real figure is worse than 10%.
That’s only one part..let’s don’t talk on murders, kidnapping and impunity...I don't have a reason to believe that we are the only ones with such problems...(I'm thinking of Mexico), Colombia is only the case I know the best…but people keeps killing each other every where...I can only pray that someday..hopefully soon.. Israel and the US will stop and think again what they are doing in Gaza.
I don't pretend in making your blog a political debate..I just needed to vent this..I keep losing faith..or what the non believers call hope.
Last night I wake up in the middle of night and was you the first thing that came into my mind…I could had been dreaming about you…I used to have beautiful dreams and used to remember them…for some reason I can’t do that anymore…
Friday, January 2, 2009
Eternity by William Blake
I was reading your beloved T.S. Elliot tonight..and somehow
I ended up stumbling on to my beloved William Blake,
who wrote this:
He who binds to himself a joy
Does the winged life destroy;
But he who kisses the joy as it flies
Lives in eternity’s sun rise.
It reads like if it was made for you.
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