Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Your Garden

I went to visit Jessica's garden today. The garden is coming out very well thanks to the communal effort of Lee, and Cassie. Jessica would be so proud of her friends, I truly appreciate the dedication and love that Cassie has put into it.

Here are some pictures, you can get an idea of how it looks like so far.

As you can see one of the flower bed is ready and blooming but there will be 5 more coming!!.

These are closer views of the flower bed.

Cassie and, I think, Patrick chose carefully the plants they used for the flower bed, to make sure they will be blooming all year. The plants look very happy there, here are some closer shots of them.

I will keep you guys updated once the other flower beds are in place and rolling!! :)

Hugs, and kisses to y'all!


Tuesday, October 13, 2009


I know you know, I haven't forgotten about you, life just gets in between and we lose tracks of minutes, hours and weeks. Cassie, Michael, Kelly and I always keep you in our conversations. I like to go through our moments..how hard we used to laughed!! I can pictured you next to me, like if it was yesterday..I can pictured every wrinkle of your hands and face...each of them.... I am sure you know that. Your hands, your character..your heart, I haven't met anyone like you...such a perfect blend.
My Jessica rest well knowing the ones you loved are doing well and think about you all the time.

Friday, August 7, 2009

This weekend, a year ago, Jessica's life was taken away. A year went by and we were left to deal with her absence..constantly missing Jessica the daugther, the sister, the aunt and the friend, painfully dreaming with what could had been a future with Jessica in it or what would she say to us when we needed her..

We also have to deal with the impunity of her murder and with the impotence of seeing the days go and not knowing what else to do, or blaming ourselves for not had done enough...familiar feelings to whoever had lost a close friend or a family member I know, familiar yes, but that dont make them any easier of dealing with or less painful.

In the meantime, the moster who took Jessica's life so brutally, lived one year more trying to cowardly blend among us, pretending he is one of us, perhaps showing concern and sorry for
Jessica's fate..stupidly thinking we buy his acting..the truth is, he is not like us, and so he decided it himself when he chose the way of his actions..for whoever did this, I feel pitty, and disgust.
To someone that has been able of living one year with the memories of the last minutes of my friend's life in his mind, I cant have compassion. I dont want to talk about this or in this way any further..not here in her blog..regarding this person, I only want to say that I truly believe we wake up in the bed we made.

A year later I don't miss Jessica less or more...I miss her constantly..it is a feeling that it is always there and that I am sure joins each of the days of her family and friends. I am truly sorry for all of them..it is unfair and unconceivable that the acts of such a deplorable being touched the fate of good people...that should not happen, and it shouldnt had ever happened.

Finally I want to share with Jessica's family and friends some words she had for me last year, when I lost someone I really loved. I treasure all the emails I have from her, and this one I know might help us all a little bit at this time. Jessica emailed me this on May 21st, 2008:

"Ivonne, honey, I am SO SO sorry about your lose. But he had a good life and he loved you. I know that doesn't help the way that you are feeling. I've had so much lose this year and what I've learned from it is how important it is to remember the 'good' times, all the things that death can not take away. Call me, write me, if you want. And HEY send me your address so I can send you fun NO stuff this summer. Miss you and love you, J."

This weekend let's do that, let's honor what she suggested me, and remember the good times
each of you had with Jessica, that's something he can not take away from us.

p.s: This Sunday 8/9, 1 p.m. in the neutral ground of St. Claude Ave. outside Harold's Plants, between Press and Montegut Streets, the groundbreaking for Jessica's memorial garden will be hold, the first plant for her garden will also be planted.

Friday, April 17, 2009

Whenever we were together,

we always laughed so much about life and people...I miss those laughs..I loved your sense of humor..always dark and smart... I can't believe it was a year ago when we were going to see Billy Joel at Jazz fest..if was a shame we ended up not going...

I talked to your mom the other day..it was heartbreaking..if you only knew how much she misses you..

I met the other day a fast friend you made on a ride in the street car, we are now friends too; just wanted to tell you because I know you will be happy in knowing so.

There hasn't been a day I don't think about you, what you would say, what would we be doing...

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

here with us

These are pictures from yesterday, Kelly, Lee and I remembered many of our favorites moments with Jessica. I hope she could felt our love and respect for her, wherever she is now.

Today you would be turning 33...you should be here with us...and we should be planning your bday party for tonight...God..this is hard..everything is so hard without you...
I have so many vivid images of you today....of your hands specially..they were so tough for such a sweet and soft person like you...I also remember the way you used to put your hands on your jaw ....and the other day, I remembered that day we played tennis..you had such a great service..
We are gonna light some candles for you today, we will have lemons and drift wood...
As Michael said, we all hope you are having a blast with Ernie and Antoinette K-doe over there. We love you babe..and will not forget about you..you blessed us all with your life, your love and sweetness made us better persons..muah!

Thursday, March 5, 2009


I can't believe how time flies. Mardi Gras was fantastic...the parades were Ok..I am not crazy about them anyway..the march bands on the opposite, were amazing..they are my reason to go.

We missed you so badly.....but we also talked about you all the time. Kelly and I managed to put our costumes together almost in the last minute...plus a couple of slepless nights. I met someone you met during your last Mardi Gras too. It was a nice coincidence, he found my cell phone on the ground..I was apperantly close to him and he asked me, I had not even noticed I had lost my cell phone. My friend Micheal told me, who he was and I showed him your picture in my cell phone..that one that I took at city park...I treasure that picture.
I will have that day in mind forever, like if it was yesterday when we sat in that bench..and you took a bottle of wine out of your purse!!..surprise, surprise..we drunk wine with cookies that day..the wine was sweet..very sweet..ha!..something special for sure. I catched some cool beetles and you said a had a good eye to find them, we exchange some of them too.

I can't stop thinking in your birthday..and how close it is. This is so sad honey..you should be with us..